I have not used this account for a long time,I have lots of stories to tell, thoughts to share but I did not have the chance to do so. Anyway, Its the holiday season once again. I have just spent my lonliest and depressing christmas ever. It was my third christmas away from my family. Third Christmas without the customs and traditions I grew up with. I have missed the usual Christmas foods again.
Last Wednesday, December 24, I went to hear mass at around 3pm, it ended at 4:30, I just stayed in the church for a while, went to Deira City Center, walk through the shops, and watch the people doing their last minute shopping. It was a pleasant thing to see, but it just made me feel that I am alone and lonely. After that, I went for my skin appointment at 7pm, it finished at around 8pm. Im supposed to have a buffet dinner in Park Hyatt with some friends, but unfortunately it was cancelled. I don’t want to go home and see my flatmate/colleague’s entire family preparing for their Noche Buena. So I decided to go back to City Center and let the time pass. I also bought a cake to bring to the Band’s Place where I decided to have my Noche Buena, which would be around 3 am. I went to their place around 9:30 and only my friend Kathy was there, I feel bored already so I decided to go to the bar and just chill out. The bar is still quite empty, only a few were there. So I went to a table, ordered a pitcher of beer and the tempting Crispy Pata. I was there alone for around 2 1/2 hours. The waiters and the band members(and are my friends as well) would approach me, and chat for a while. It is almost 12 and my other friends are not yet there. the bar is also being filled with crowd.At that time, I really want to cry, I feel soooooooo alone. Then past 12, they came. Enjoyed some drinks and danced the night away. We then went to the band’s place, and ofcourse more alcoholic drinks, now we are drinking shots of Jack Daniels, accompanied by a sip of coke. Its already 6 am, then all of us went to the company accomodation for the waiters, they are having some parlor games, and I joined the paper dance,with Mam Tina(one of the bar’s manager) as my partner. Unfortunately, we lost the game. I left the party around 8am, went back in the band’s place and had some chat with my friend. I then decided to leave around 10 am.
Im supposed to have lunch with my former house mates in Satwa,but Im drunk and sleepy and woke up around 4 pm.So it did not purse, I rescheduled it for dinner time, but I have cleaned the room, and my car and watched some movies, then I fell asleep again and woke up before midnight.
That was Christmas. Alone. Lonely. Depressed.
